Monday, December 28, 2009

jovial Monday

i fell asleep with a big lump of emotion in my heart. didnt even realise how i could doze off in such shape. and i woke up to the songs of the birds chirping happily outside my window. as i take a peek from my off-white curtain, Monday greeted me with jovial blue sky with thick white clouds over the green shades of the palm tree out my window. i instantly light up and forgo what happened the night before, and made a new vow upon my own happiness. think about it folks, how easily God makes us happy - a slight of blue and white and green, plus infinite dreams of tomorrow. it made me think, if i were to wake up in other places other than Kuching this morning, would i be greeted with such fine art? take for example if i woke up in KL, i might be greeted with the scratching sound Giselle made on my door and her chasing over Yui once i opened the door. and when i finally make my exit from the house, i shall be greeted by honking cars and polluted air of urban life. and people say, how we start our day IS significant, no?

read this from a friend's page who got it from somewhere else. lets ponder upon it, coz it is SO true :)

"Sometimes, Allah SWT breaks our spirit to save our soul. He breaks our heart to make us whole. He sends us pain so we can be stronger. He sends us failure so we can be humble. He sends us illness so we can take care of ourselves. Sometimes Allah SWT takes everything away from us so we can learn the value of everything He gave us. Allah SWT Is Great."

Friday, December 18, 2009

spongy fun time!

i've come to think that spongebob cartoon has some power over me. everytime i see spongebob on the tv i'll go gaga and instantly light up like a five-year old just been given a new toy. even my sister is not THAT into the yellow sponge. but i know Abang likes it more than Farhana :D

here's a video of The F.U.N Song by Spongebob and Plankton. enjoy~


F is for friends who do stuff together~
U is for you and me~
N is for anyywhere at anytime at all, down here in the deep blue sea~

you should feel all tingly inside when you watch this because that's how it is suppose to feel ;)

ps: rozai, i miss you and our spongy-cartoon-coloring time~ *hugs*

Sunday, December 13, 2009

how we help

the best part of being young unemployed graduate is, i can get away from those people who wander around public spaces looking for a pry to market their product, especially those from credit cards company. when they come near me, i'll just say 'i'm still studying' and wave them off and they quickly back away. oooh i like watching that. like i have the power to shut them up and not bother me. hihihi or else, i'll be listening to their ramblings for hours without me understanding any single word they're saying (i'm hopeless when it comes to economics). luckily i can still disguise as a student with my features ;p

but there was this one time when i was still a student when Unicef was doing their casual roadshow in Carrefour, i walked to their booth and very much hoping to be entertained by one of the members to explain on the cause. and so one of them did approach me friendly with a smile. he explained that we can help change lives of the less fortunate children across Malaysia by donating at least RM1 per day, on a monthly basis. i was doing a quick thinking 'RM1 per day wont do me any harm'. its like skipping on the teh o peng or five-piece pisang goreng which i took almost everyday. after a tiny pause, he asked 'where are you working?' and i said 'oh no. i'm still a student' and he went 'oh nevermind. maybe you can help once you start working :)' and he handed me one of the beautiful postcards of Unicef - with an honest smile. and i walked away dejected by the fact that i'm not eligible to help because i'm still a student. well, in a way i like their policy, that they do not force you into doing something you cannot afford. not that saving RM1 is not affordable for a student, its just that in any other person's mind, students need the money more than anyone else. our parents work hard to support our education. even Unicef is doing all the campaigns to help more children to get their right of education.


by Unicef China
on photo: Headline: Don't ignore me. China has over 1.5 million underprivileged children.


by Unicef Turkey
on photo: Don't let our girls stay uneducated! There are so many girls in Turkey who never went to school. Lets change this! www.unicefturk.org

so my point is... i dont have any really. it was suppose to be a rambling about how i got away from the people selling credit cards. hihihi just read between the lines aight? ;) now here's a cute video for you:

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

euphoria

i have a new found bliss. gazing at the sky while floating in the water as  Mr Sun shines right on my face. i could do this all day long~ xD

Monday, December 7, 2009

new sensation

santa claus and his herd of reindeer are back at the front yard of Hilton, Kuching. this time of last year, Apiz and i went capturing the beauty of the city at night through the lomo lens. i miss lomo-ing. i miss doing it with Apiz.



i've got a sudden feeling of missing taking picture together with Apiz, as in having my picture taken with Apiz in it. now that is a brand new feeling that i've never felt before. ooh i'm so over the moon by having this feeling alone~ afterall, it all started with a photo, WE started with a photo. i'll save that for later ;)


Saturday, December 5, 2009

year of cuteness

4 December 2009 - Giselle is ONE year old

oh so you know, Mak nicknamed her Cizel, and occassionally it becomes Rozel.. how human turn to cuteness mode when surrounded by lovely little creatures like Cizel Giselle.. here are some of her random pictures of cuteness and bimbo-ness..


#1 Giselle first cutest bimbo moment caught on camera


#2 waiting for something to 'magically appear'
 

#3 amazed by the 'magic'


#4 one lazy evening


#5 'let me in' cute begs


#6 not so sopan


#7 very lazy even to hold own head..


#8 ...or leg


#9 my loyal companion staying up finishing my dissertation


#10 helping me sorting the paper


#11 helping me by just being a bimbo


#12 ooh we ran out of ink!


#13 the coolest (birthday) hat


#14 enjoying herself in the wire bin (for a while before she started panicking to free herself)



#15 taking a tour inside the car



#16 alluring pose



 #17 model-shaped body



#18 sopan - dudok kepit


#19 peeking into my room



#20 watching fellow model doing their thing


#21 desperately craving for attention


#22 darlie all shiny white - the reason behind her white coat


#23 trapped on 11th floor


#24 favourite corner






Giselle, despite your bimbo-ness, i love you with all my heart & i miss you~ :) :) :)

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

ps: i love you

10 things i hate about you:

1. i hate that you are far, making it hard for me to bear the feelings of missing you, having no one to run to when the day gets dark

2. i hate that i'm reminded of you everytime i see my baby cats because their watery and dark eyes kinda remind me of yours

3. i hate that i have to go to the vet by my own without you because one of the babies are having constant eye boogers and most of the time he can't see :( and most of the time he doesn't know where his momy is

4. i hate that it's the festive season, and you are still not here, and apparently everyone is not here

5. i hate the way you make me feel guilty for hurting you, eventhough i am to blame

6. i hate the way you're being all sweet even when i'm in my meanest self

7. i hate that sometimes you dont get what i'm saying and you'll say something else about another thing and we'll start rowing over each other

8. i hate that you always give in to me, just genuinely wants me to be happy and not give up on me :')

9. i hate your somet

10. but mostly i hate, the way i dont hate you, not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

(i just have to use the line from 10 things i hate about you for number 10, because it is just perfect where it is)

this is something i doodled when i was in a bus, on my way back to KL from a one day trip to Melaka to see Apiz :) and i think this so-called art piece should be about three years old by now. it was one of the best days i had as a student, a friend and a lover :)





































Apiz Dear, i miss everything about you!!

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Sunday, November 22, 2009

summer on a rainy sunday

it was a wet sunday evening. it didnt rain all the time though. one minute its pouring and windy like your umbrella's going to help you lift off the ground, and one minute there's no single drop of rain on the front screen of your car that the wiper makes the annoying screeching sound as it sweeps the dry glass. another minute, its raining cats and dogs again as if trying not to give in to those who are hoping to jog in the park. if i have the right companion, i would have driven to the beach. no. i would have asked my companion to drive, and i would enjoy watching the rain drops hit the window screen of the car. or i would sing to the songs on the radio. or i would watch my companion drives (not applicable if my companion is a girl). and hopefully, the rain stops when i arrive at the beach allowing me to run from an end to another. i dont ask much, just a period of time for me to reach the other end, thats sufficient enough to make my day :)

instead, i stayed in. watched (500) days of summer, despite the heavy rain outside. it is a bit complicated to my in-depth understanding. but its not the typical story about love, so the next scene is always unpredictable. and it does not have a happy ending. it is somehow like a reality check, like it is not happy ending all the time. but an end will always be followed by a new beginning. so there goes another chance to find happiness at the end of it. and hopefully the next new beginning will ends the same, and the one after that, and after that... ooh and i love the part where they played husband and wife in Ikea. just too sweet :)

so today started off good, had fun picking up vegetables in the market. went gaga over the sea of fruits. i almost bought every one of them if its not for agent 767 was with me, and was already salivating for a toast by the time i picked the oranges. so i pushed the other fruits into my shopping list for next week.

Mak just called.. :) can i call it a day, already?

six sundays

a saturday has passed. waiting for the remaining six sundays..

:) :) :)

Saturday, November 21, 2009

why i miss Mak & Bapak

i have to write off this entry in Sarawakian language cause it is cute the way it is, and will not be as cute if translated into English. and so i apologise to those who don't get what this is all about.

one fine morning...
mekorg gi breakfast, Bapak nak parking moto, mekorg(Mak, Farhana & me) keluar dolok.
Bapak: order ngan kamek manok duak cucur ah.
Mak: ok.
Bapak: eh sik jadi jak. order ayam duak cucur jak.
Mak: ???

cute aren't they, my parents.. hihihi

Monday, November 9, 2009

bonded bone

i am a school athlete. a good one. and i hear you say to dad, 'it's good that she goes a different way from me. a diversion.' and you hand me that favourite bun of mine. i walk around the mall with tears streaming down my cheek while eating that bun. it doesnt matter who's looking, coz at that instant, my heart is full of love for a brother like you (and i think i smiled in my sleep).

i know you are always supportive of me and my dreams, Abang. when everyone else loses their faith in me, you stand by me and keep my backbone straight so i can stand up strong facing the world. from you, i could see a vision of 'real life', though it is blurry. you've been my rock all along, especially during my uni years. you've been my idol of a dream-catcher. you taught me to be independent despite of being a protective brother. i want you to know, that you are one of my growing-up heroes! and i love you to pieces :) :) :)

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

super cool feeling!

Apiz shared with me this video just 10 minutes ago. and i friggin like it! thank you beby!

enjoy~

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

truth hurts

 i'm sarcastic, and i'm judgmental. i'm not all-sweet afterall :)

so i was told not to expect. if you think about it, funny how many can easily said that to us in the means to cool us down when we're in the hard situation. but when comes the times they're the ones who're in the shoe, they DO expect us to do things they expect us to do. without shame, asking for it some more.. you're a bit selfish aren't you? :) cliche enough, but, havent you tired of hearing 'treat others like how you expect to be treated'? or maybe you just forget.. ooh, its ok then. we're humans afterall.. :)

ps: and so i was reminded with sheila's collection of words of wisdom: their happiness is not our responsibilities. i can apply it here, can't i sheila? hee

Sunday, October 25, 2009

happiness...

...surely didnt stick too long. i've learned a BIG lesson. instead of waiting for it to come. i must seek for it, or at the very least chance of finding it, i shall run away from it. so next year will be different i suppose.

exhausted.

Friday, October 23, 2009

the musical

so Cuci The Musical officially starts today.


and i can't go. coz i just came back from KL 10 days ago, and i'm going to KL again in three weeks time. so the timing for the musical is a bit off for me (although it is a purrrrfect timing if i'm in KL, coz someone or anyone can chia me watch this musical on 24th October! :p). since i'm still proudly unemployed (haha!!), i dont want to be a spoil child who only knows how to ask for money from parents and spend them without feeling guilty of not working :p so in other words, i want more money but at the same time i dont want to start working yet so i dont have money so i act like i have no money lah. no money no talk, right? :p and so i cant see Awie and Afdlin Shauki singing at Istana Budaya this time around. the price to pay, eh?


nevermind. i have found another musical performance! the best part is, its free and it happened in real life - more precisely, a real supermarket! this really made my day me for the whole period of Cuci The Musical showing in Istana Budaya! *proud(as.in.garfield-proud)* 

you OUGHT to check this out:



i wonder what will happen if we do this kinda stuff in Malaysia. you know lah some of the Malaysian. what will you do if you suddenly hear someone singing in soprano pitch dancing around with three or four other people in synchronised steps in Carrefoure? or Ta Kiong maybe? or Giant? ngeehee~

Thursday, October 22, 2009

i love Redang!

when i look up in the sky, and see clouds like these..



















it makes want to go to the beach.. and at this very instant, i terribly miss the holiday i had in Redang recently..




















with its turquoise colour water baring all its inhabitant in it, who would not cry (silently) in joy? swiftly, all the nausea and headaches from the eight-hour bus journey seems bearable and worth it..














 




as my feet touched the super soft white fine sand, i really felt like rolling on it and bury myself in it amidst the stinging sun ray.. but of course i didnt..



















the water is so very mineral-water-clear that i wished all of the people-whom-i-knew-would-enjoy-this-bliss were with me in this humble island of Redang :)



















of course i didnt waste any time.. i got change and have my bimbo moment in the water. hee!
























i miss swimming with the fishes..



















i discovered there really are blue sands, and i thought Yuna was exaggeratting in her song..



















i had the chance to see the house which was once in a movie acted by Sammi Cheng.. and also, i got to know the helpful + zealous beach boy, --- (oohh, i forgot his name!)



















i  missed waking up early in the morning just to watch sunrise by the beach - one of my many yet-to-come-true wishes!



















but the sun bailed out on me..



















and so i just enjoyed myself sitting on the soft + moist sand watching the day as it grew brighter..



















and brighter..



















and brighter..



















and brighter.. before i realised it was time to go home..



















*sigh* i really miss the beach AND the island, even Twenteen enjoyed it..
























i heart Redang Island!
























until my next trip to an island where the fishes and i will reunite, Damai Beach will do.. though it doesnt have sandy white beach, or crystal clear blue water - i'm so very thankful that we have beautiful and clean beaches within the vicinity of Kuching :)

















ps: credits to Sheila, for some of the photos are taken by her :)