love strong

the first time i heard the term 'love strong' was when a childhood friend of mine asked a few years after we havent met each other, 'kitak masih ka dengan Hafiz?' (i think that was somewhere in 2003-2004. i think.) and i said 'aok masih.' and then she said 'waaaa love strong eh' that was my first time hearing the term love strong. never heard of it before, i thought in my head 'aiee salah padah ka apa nya tok. strong love la. ekekek' kira tetak ngan urang la tek. haish sik senonoh perangei, padahal dikpun yang naive. ekekekek tetak ngan dikpun gik. and then i learned the true meaning of the the term.

even my nenek also know how to use it ok. this happened a few years back.

Nek Wan: iboh suroh Razi betunang lamak gilak bah. setaun lamak gilak ya.

Mak: aie apa jak mek duak Junai dolok duak taun.

Nek Wan: eeeey kitak duak ya lain. kitak duak ya lep (love) strong!

sapa sik tekejut nenek i kelaka gia. haaaaa! lep strong sungguh nenek ku.

the reason why i'm yapping bout love strong today is... do you realise the dancing couple on the right hand side of your screen has moved to the number 12? yeeeepy! the couple will be swaying back to number 1 tomorrow! oh yessss we are turning a year older and more in love tomorrow! its our eleventh year fellas :)

i'm not gloating on how 'love strong' (heh. is that how we use it?) we are, but i am sure my love for Apiz is strong enough to take down my wall of ego and his love that i feel is strong enough that i want to be a better person when i'm with him.

Apiz dear, its been a while since i tell the world I Love You :)

Happy Birthday & Happy Anniversary, Sayang!

reviving

this is Najwa Latif. check her out yeah. most of her videos are done in the car, which is kinda cute when you think of it :)

horcrux

(source: hannarabittah)

berhenti berharap

i love you so dearly, and i know you love me back. but you dont know how to jaga my hati, and that is very heartbreaking :'(

so so so tired of being disappointed. being let down. being betrayed. being cunningly lied to. but because i only have good thoughts about people that i did what i did. i trust you, and this is what i get. sometimes i feel like going so so so far away from you, to make you realise how it feels for me not to be close and around. but i dont think thats the best way out of this mess. you might not even realise that i am gone. so maybe it is a wake up call. no more high hopes on you. yes, you can finally have your back rest cause i no longer want you to do anything for me, with me. may you find your way, and i find mine.

bye.

my person

this is a love message to one of the many owners of 21st January - but she is super extraordinary special coz she is my person, she is Shasheila Daud!

 

one year ago :)

over the years, we have been through thick and thin. we've been through hell and back again. we laughed, we cried, we fought, we hugged, and most importantly we survived it all! i just want you to know that you have been an amazing friend to me throughout the decade. you have taught me alot whether you realise it or not. i think my favourite moment with you is the one in Singapore where you dragged your bag down a so-called 3degrees hill and your bag went tergoleng-goleng and you were ngerepok at the same time and there was an orang puteh looking on. lets relive that moment shall we? aaaah i'm being a bad friend for liking that moment ;( but that is just so you!!! with your words coming out of your mouth tumbling into each other. heh i can laugh to sleep lah like this remembering all the words you said.

(ok right now i'm giggling to myself remembering that night you called Apiz 'boss')

apart from having babbling disorder, i look at you as a rational person. so you're a funny wise person. wow! superb combination dont you think? just dont mess up the prescription or that report thing you do in front of a patient like the ones in Grey's Anatomy ok! you've been a great listener, and i really hope i could be one for you too. i might do a button for you for that, kannnn??

other than that, you are one super cool travel mate! lets go travel some moreee!

i wish you all the luck in the world for your final year being a med student!! may you be surrounded with all the happiness and love throughout the year to keep your spirit high! and may you'll always be under His guidance and protection. Amin :) hope you had a blast kebaboom silver birthday!

xoxo, you know i love you!

*hugggggss*

yes you

right this moment, i am missing so many person, so many things, so many memories.

i miss the girl whom i confide in back then. i miss crossing the road while holding my bestfriend's hand. i miss zaman Parkson-TJ-SP. i miss the girls night out. i miss listening to Maroon 5 in the car with the girls. i miss camwhoring at that gelato cafe opposite Hilton (whats its called, again?). i miss the girl who picked fight with me. i miss having familiar faces around. i miss the adolescent innocence. i miss the potluck party. i miss school memories. i miss the evening sunshine. i miss that night i travelled alone back from Melaka. i miss hugging Ina. i miss aikido. i miss having someone i know living overseas. i miss the smell of the first birthday present Apiz gave me. i miss birthday cards. i miss the 16 year old me. i miss the 20 year old Apiz. i miss everything and everyone. i even miss doing what i did today.

if you're reading this, yes you random reader. if we have a memory together, even one tiny bit of a smirk or a wink, i miss you. yes, YOU :) :) :)

i'm a red-head now : part II

as for 2011. one great way to start a year is: a wedding! my roomate back in UIA Matric Centre got married on 1.1.11. i am very the very happy for her~ she was my partner in crime back in the Matric years. i used to sleep over at her beautiful place in Sungai Buloh. even if i dont, she would pick me up at the hostel and bring me around. she gave me the very first lesson driving in KL! she showed me around, she taught me alot. we also went out shopping with the exact same top once! haha

Ainil, the beautiful bride. the week before her ceremony, she sent out a note to all her guests to request us all wear white on that day if we have any. in the western countries, it is almost disrespectful for a guest, let alone guestS, to wear white on a wedding reception, cause only the bride gets to wear the colour on that day. but not Ainil. for her, the whiter the better. she wanted everyone to blend in together in whiteness that day! Ainil, your combination with Elly is ravishing, babe! deeply happy from the bottomest of my heart for both of you~

after years of driving in KL, i had my 1st accident. yup yup yup! i chose 1.1.11 to have an accident. i knocked the pillar of my parking lot in my apartment. hahahahaha i dont simply knock other people ok. i accident sorang-sorang jak. hahaha

i was worried sick on Monday night. thinking bout my 1st class for this semester on the next day. because i'll be joining my seniors. up 3 batches senior. and i'm the only one from my batch. konon i'm the super junior in the class la. i'm worried if there's a group or pair work, i'll have no one to pair up with coz i dont know anyone. and of course they already have their own clique. i almost wanted to drop the subject. but i think again, that lame reason is not worth my time. so on my way to the class, i keep on praying to Allah to keep me strong and make the class possible for me. and once i sat inside, Alhamdulillah. everything was fine :) the senior didnt turn up so creepy. i even sat next to the super senior. but then again, i guess in terms of age, i'm the sensei. hahaha now bow to me you little children! the power of doa...

and then... after the class ended, i was rushing my way to Sri Pentas in Bandar Utama. they opened up a counter giving away the tickets away for free at 11am. i want the Anugerah Juara Lagu tickets soooooo badd!!! every possible circumstances popped into my mind. like: its a working day, rilek lah. sikda urang ngambik tiket ya bah. so i relaxed. driving dengan bergaya cool. and then the clock shows 10.45am and i'm already at TTDI area. i thought 'hmmmm gik awal. maybe i could go for a drink sekejap. kekekeke' tetak sorang ingat dah berjaya tahap duduk VVIP seat. and then something clicked into my cute brain 'rami gilaaaaaaa kot people requesting for the ticket. and they're giving it for free, and its limited. people WOULD  skip coffee time and drive to Sri Pentas and get those tickets!!!!! especially Malaysian. no drinks for me. MUST GO NOW' then i start driving like a makcik looking for the entrance to Sri Pentas. i got a parking at around 10.55am. and there is already a loooooooooooooooong queue outside the Balai Pengawal. i panicked! double park pun double park la! 'mudahan pakcik somet sik menyaman urang time tok', i prayed. i joined  merriment. and i prayed to God i can get those tickets. dipendekkan cerita, doa saya dimakbulkan, lagi. Alhamdulillah :) :) :)

so i am going to watch Yuna perform afterall. and Shahir, and Black and Tomok, and Adila, and Fazial Tahir. yay!

2011. two thousand ELEVEN. so.very.special. i'm lost of words. how do i say this. this year, my relationship with Apiz turns ELEVEN. yup. that'll happen in less than a month. Alhamdulillah :'') who would have thought? not me. yes my initial intention was, mun dah start begerek ya, make sure klak kawen ngan nya, konon becinta sampai ke jinjang pelamin (ewah) sampei beranak pinak sampei ke Syurga, as in no tukar2 boyfriend from the very 1st one, yes thats exactly what happened. but i never imagine how it would make me feel to get this far. i am so very grateful to Allah SWT. Alhamdulillah. thank you Allah. the power of doa, kannn :) :) :')

i guess 2011 will be a memorable year, as lots and lots and lots of friends have chosen this year to tie the knot. Ainil did it. my graceful Sarah got engaged and will be married later this year. and a few number of friends have started sending out invitations as well. and some are already battling the stress metre on wedding preparations.

Sarah & her fiancé

(source: Facebook. ekekekeke)

so i guess the year full of love is finally here~ spread the love people. for those who are still single and available, maybe this is the year you'll be lucky in love. for those who are single but attached, we're in the same boat babes! keep the love growing and pray for the best! for those engaged and  waiting to get married, this would be the time to spend all out with your parents and siblings before you got another responsibility on your shoulder! for those who are married, hey make lotsa babies will ya! tadaa! free horoscope for everyone!

now, i have a pesanan to all my sisters in Islam, and also to myself, tips on how to stay attractive and beautiful for the rest of our lives :)

1. To beautify your eyes: lower your gaze towards strange men, this will make your eyes pure and shiny.

2. To beautify your face and make it shiny: keep doing wudhu minimum five times a day.

3. To have attractive lips: always mention Allah and remember to speak the truth.

4. As for blush and rouge: “modesty” (haya’) is one of the best brands and it can be found in any of the Islamic centers.

5. To remove impurities from your face and body: use a soap called “istighfar” (seeking forgiveness of Allah) this soap will remove any bad deeds.

6. Now about your hair: if any if you has a problem of hair split ends, then I suggest “islamic hijab” which will protect your hair from damage.

7. As for jewelry: beautify your hands with humbleness and let your hands be generous and give charity to the poor.

8. To avoid heart disease: forgive people who hurt your feelings.

9. Your necklace should be a sign to pardon your fellow brothers and sisters.

If your follow these advices given to you by the Creator, you will have a beautiful and attractive inner and outer appearance :) inshaAllah.

source:  islamisbeautiful.tumblr.com

ps: oh yaa. these two posts have nothing to do with me being a red-head. i'm not a red-head. suka-suka polah title propaganda. hehe although i always wanted to colour my hair red ever since. ok stop. more yapping soon!

i'm a red-head now : part I

note: the initial post was a bit too long, so i have to split it into two parts, before you guys quit on me half way. this part I is pretty long as well, but please bear with me!!!!

happy 2011 y'all!!!

its already been 6 days into the new year, and i havent conclude my 2010 like most people did. mostly because i'm lazy busy, busy catching up with TV shows. hehehe huh what a way to start a year kan! haha

my 2010 has been a year full of new findings, knowledge and discovery. like yesteryears, i learn alot. but 2010, was the greatest teacher so far. so my laziness continue, i'll just pinpoint my highlights of the year

• being unemployed for half a year. come to think bout it, what the heck did i do huh??? i remembered, the first few months i was hunting for a potential college/uni for me to pursue my ID. then when i finally found Raffles, Mak asked me to postponed my enrollment cause she needed me to help her with Abang's wedding preparations. so i did. and for months before Abang's big day, i went from one bridal shop to another to survey their promotions and what not. that was stressful, like SERIOUSLY! and i thank God that Mak asked me to help her. i cant imagine if Mak was the one who's running here and there and dealing with all the stresses and Abang's demand and all. pity her, dont you think? and also thank God they didnt leave the catering to me as well. if i were in charge of that one as well, i think i cry for three days before calling the caterer. apa kah? my point is, wedding preparation is a really tedious task. its tiring but at the same time its fun, for me. and after it is all done, i feel like i just achieved something big, although i think i only helped like 40%. but again, it is stressful, til the stage that you feel like you wana get out of the country and go somewhere serene and relaxing to take you head off things. i guess that was exactly why they invent the 'honeymoon' tradition right? to clear the bride & groom's heads after months of wedding preparation? but if the bride & groom is not involve with the preparation, can the wedding planner goes for a vacation instead? perhaps planning a wedding for ourself is not as tedious? coz you get to choose and decide on your own. but doing it for others, you're only the middle person. you get one quotation from this person, and you have to ask for the approval of the groom/bride, then there's the meeting with the minister of finance some more. kan?? ehi panjang la pulok.

i clearly remember, this was the moment when i realised 'i did it! everything went smoothly, Alhamdulillah :')' tangga dah besinsin dah yours truly.

• i learned how to bake cupcakes! and made some $$ out of it :)

 my very first attempt on baking and decorating cupcakes! :D

 

• i got into Raffles! and made some new friends. and met a person which thinks almost similarly like me, in a way. that's my lecturer. this lecturer of mine, is very inspiring i tell you. especially on the first class, he'll like motivated us to go out, to see the world, to experience spaces, to feel the atmosphere, to indulge in the ambience, to not sit at home and just google everything, to get our lazy bums off the chair and walk walk walk run run run go go go wherever you can go. thrice! he did it thrice. once in his class last term, and twice in his two classes yesterday!!! i feel like going to Singapore again, already. or Manila, or Bangkok? Bangkok again? isnt Bangkok is so last yearrr?? NO! (btw, i'm designing retail spaces this term. meaning: i'm designing SHOPS with clothes, or shoes, or bags, or umbrellas, or body care products,you get what i mean. meaning: got to experience the spaces. meaning: SHOPPING MALLS here i come! meaning: FUN FUN FUN!!)

• i met and fell in love with Mickey (who is sleeping at my feet while i write this)
 

 

 Mickey, disaat mula-mula perkenalan. maseh malu-malu gik time tok.

 

Mickey, the true colour.

• i discovered the high fashion phenomena which was already going on for a while here in KL. or maybe in other parts of Malaysia too. but my tempurung is not fully opened, so i cant see passed KL yet. ngehehe most importantly, these people wear the tudungs/scarves/shawls/selendangs!! now, who say you cant be fashionable if you're wearing hijab?? just dont get it wrong, hijab is not a fashion. hijab is supposedly to be something you are attached to from within, then you make your hijab fashionable and make your own style out of it :)

• i learned that the car Smart Fortwo CAN be extended. check this out:

Apiz: Smart Fortwo dapat extend, tauk kah?
Aten: extend apa?
Apiz: extend lah. tambah pintu. mun ada duit lebeh, pegi kedei, extend tambah 2 gik pintu, jadi Smart Forfour.
Aten: aieeeeeeeee! menaaa kah?? *mata bersinar2 dah time tok mendengar information yang menarik*
Apiz: aok lah. kakya mun ada duit gik, extend gik. extend gik. sampei jadi bas!
*TOING* Apiz pelantin 30 kaki kenak side kick oleh Aten.

i seriously thought he was serious  -.-" coz Apiz is not the one who usually give this kinda ridiculuos information. usually, he says one dumbest word at a time, like calling me with his own name. so full of himself kan? imagine klaka ngan dirikpun kali. i love you more already, baby!

wooopps nampak ketiak ktk yang.. kucikucikuuuu~ keletek ketiak nya...

•  not forgetting my superb birthday!!!

• i got to experience Balinese spa! muahahaha i forgot to tell you in my birthday entry, that a spa treatment was one of my birthday presents! hihihi it was awesomeness! especially the Balinese scrub. you want??? silalah pegi ke Bali ataupun Thailand sekarang.

lebeh kurang mcm tok lah tek. yerdeh. alu nak imagine i topless you people tok..

• ·i fall back in love with Yuna. i used to like her back in 2008, but then something happened that made me pull myself away from her. maybe i’ll save the story for another day. but for now, i’m back on being her supporter, publicly.

• got to spend the last few days of December with family. we went to Singapore to see the Christmas' deco. and I-City for the new year's eve night. we didnt wait til 12am though, coz everyones pretty exhausted already. countdown with TV2, and watched KLCC's fireworks from our apartment! it feels good really :) lemme feast your eyes with the photos. ngahaha

 

Singapore - christmas night

yes. i walked around in Singapore wearing slepar jepon. ya jak comfortable -.-

 super love this moment!!! makan-ice-cream-one-dollar moment

 vibrant colour of flowers~ loike!

 Mickey is afraid of that green thing. recognise it?

my dady kool & mama kool

 yeah i went to Genting in a dress. while queing for the cable car, i got lots of stares from the people around me. their faces were like 'wth r u thinkin goin here wearing a dress????' i throw back a face which said 'helllllo Genting! i'm here!! now where's the beach?' why is it that when a girl wears a comfortable light flowy dress, she has to go to the beach?? 'duh! of course la i'm not that bimbo go play space shot wearing a dress. like hellllo? tok ku melesit skit daie ko.

 i-City, Shah Alam

 i am proud of myself for taking this pica. muahahahahah!

 it is seriously an awesome place. a must go if anyone of you are in the viccinity of KL or Selangor. serious menyesal mun sik pegi, i got several of 'sik sangka ada tempat camtok wujud di Malaysia' after they saw my collection of photos. and Sheila, next time you're in KL and you want me to teman you to go here, i'll be more than pleased to go with you! :D and oh! sik ada antu the night i went there ok. you guys who believed ada antu di siya are so gullible. ngahahah *ehem* and the best part of it was, there was a congregational prayer (sembahyang berjemaah) for Maghrib and Isya' organised that night, at the open air, surrounded by the colourful trees. ada lah dalam 4 5 saf urang join sembahyang :') and while waiting for Isya', they didnt put on a loud music to fill the air, but instead an ustaz gave a good ceramah agama, very suitable for all visitors, not only Muslims :)

i think Farhana got it wrong. i said put on a funny face, not a cute face.

all in all, 2010 was awesome and legendary!! the whole year was a rollercoaster of emotions. and nothing, nothing that i am not grateful of. i'm a firm believer of 'everything happens for a reason' or 'ada hikmah disebalik apa yang berlaku'. yes i really do believe in it, so this is me full of gratitude to Allah SWT for a great year. Alhamdulillah..

to be continued ...