Thursday, July 29, 2010

just because i do

"dear.." she said. leaning on one side of her body against the door frame of their room.

he was watching ESPN when his lover called him. he looked up.

they stared at each other for a while. he was waiting for her next line.

she suddenly rushed to him and put her arms around his torso so tightly and started crying. surprised and confused, he held her back in return and asked, "what's wrong, love? what happened?"

she kept on crying. and cried. and cried. and didn't answer his questions.

he still didn't know what's going on, but he wrapped his arms so firmly around her body, giving her comfort and warmth. his chin resting on her newly shampooed hair. the way they held each other looked like they were two pieces of puzzle that fit so perfectly together that there were no room for air to pass through their intersecting parts. they sat there on the couch and held each other for the longest period ever without saying any words. the only sound that can be heard was the one from the TV box.

as he felt her shoulders relaxed a little, and as she stopped sobbing, he took her chin up til their eyes were at the same level. concern in his eyes. while hers are puffed from all the salty water coming out from them.

"i never want you to be sad. so i'm crying all my tears out on your behalf. for all your sad memories and sorrow feelings. now you will never be sad again. cause i did them for you. promise me you won't be sad any more." she finally spoke. her lower lips trembled with every words. she tried hard not to continue crying part two.

"but, love.." he attempted to speak.

only stopped by her.

"i love you too much.."

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

crazy love

i have a few posts sitting in my drafts box waiting to be posted in here. but the posts need some photo attachments to help you enjoy my boring yada-yada essay. but at the moment, i cant post them yet because i cant attach the photos, because my laptop get some seizure attack whenever i try to upload or download something from the internet. haha over dramatic, i know. and also, i cant write peacefully in this new space in KL i call my second home. because there is something watching my fingers moving up and down typing and its waiting the right time to jump on the keyboard and chew my fingers off. oh oh dramatic some more. and right now it's trying to eat off the laptop screen. ohh this is so scary~

so far, life has been great here. yesterday i went to my first Freehand Drawing class and i think it was a blast! although we only learned how to draw like a full page of eggs and circles and boxes, i think it was great. and drawing a perfect egg in a continuous line is harder than you think it is. you try lah! and thank God the lecturers are all fun people. yeay!

of course, i miss waking up in my bed in Kuching. i miss going out for breakfast with my cousin. i miss Saturday night fusion in Saddad Court. i miss baking cupcakes mid-morning till lunch hour and Bapak and Mak come home for lunch and they watch my cupcakes and they have these little smiles on their faces read 'nice smell of cupcakes, but i wanna eat my lunch on this table'. erk. maybe not. well, actually that's what i always thought of after i'm done with cupcakes at 12.30pm. i miss waiting for my parents and Farhana to come home for lunch and eat together with them. i miss teasing Farhana. and last night i cried missing Fluffy. i hope she's doing ok back home.but Alhamdulillah, i have thoughtful friends who constantly reminding me on skills to survive living away from home. thank you Sheila for reminding me to not skip any of my meals. you have really mendatangkan kesedaran to me the other day when you talk about skipping meals with your simple words. everytime i forgot to eat, i remember you ngerepok with concern bout not eating and getting gastritis. and thank you Apiz for reminding me not to waste my money buying unnecessary cute things. i cant believe you actually mock me and say i only buy them to take pictures and not use them. huh! but true also lah. thank you Dear. everytime i see cute things, i ask myself: will i ever use them, and will Apiz shake his head when he knows i bought it? (but i did buy the cute Ikea container set anyway. how lah. it looks sooo cute when arranged together. i swear i'll use them. and no. i wont take photos of them lining up descending in size.) next cute thing, i will do what you say ok? erk. oh oh ohh! and i met this new boy. he's not that cute. but he definitely has the X-factor. he's crazy sometimes all the times. everytime i'm not around him, i found myself always thinking bout him and missing him. i wish i can be with him all the time. err no no. scratch that. since he's a little cuckoo, i dont want to be around him all the time. maybe only at times when he's adorably cute and makes a fool of himself and crack me up like no  one else could. and i'm so happy that Apiz likes him too. and they actually found something in common.

meet Mickey, the mouse-trapped-in-a-cat's-body.
he's thoughtful you see. ALL.THE.TIME. trying too hard to be there for everyone. this was when he tried to help me get a table set up.

this is also the creature who jumps up and down my keyboard and chase the mouse my hand (while holding the mouse). you make my day, crazy fella. xoxo you.