believe and keep on praying

Assalamualaikum lovelies :)

just went through another crit session today with the internal judges. these past four days have been really stressful to me. not only i have to get my work done, but also my mind was occupied with some other things that apparently only i have the solution and if my decision was not right, everybody else will suffer. imagine that burden on your shoulder when you actually have just enough time for you think only one thing at a time. before this, i've heard stories from friends bout how sometimes during exam period, their brain is so full with information and no matter how hard you try to put in some more, you just cant. and you puke. literally. yea i got to experience that feeling, but luckily i did not throw up. i just got to the stage where i wish time can slow down for a while and i'll cry my eyes out for an hour or two, then i can rearrange everything back on track. but that is definitely one thing time will not do. so i carried on. thank God for Asha!! thanks for helping me through this rough patch babe! :')

being a design student, we are always push to the very edges of the cliff, by who else, but the lecturers. i think the difference between doing design studies, and theoretical studies is that, design is not about black and white, it is not about following the rules, not bout right or wrong, definitely not about being ordinary. expectations are high especially from, again, the lecturers. they want to see you go to that place nobody could ever think of going. they want you to crack your head and explore deep into reasons. sometimes it is like they're challenging you to think way far than they could. they want you to be an individual. they want the best out of you. sometimes, it is tiring to keep up with these expectations. but most of the time it motivates you to be better. a better designer. a better individual, who knows yourself well. design students are pushed to their limits it could drain you out. criticism has become part of life. being critic has become everyday's food. but it is all for the betterment and whetting the skills. we definitely dont get compliments a lot.

so after torturing myself in self pity for few days, i get to present my work to the judges today. and Alhamdulillah, the critics was ok. not too harsh. nothing major. i think the judges like them. after i finished explaining my concept and showing my works to them, one said 'i think its good' and the other one said 'yeaa. everything looks good'. ohhhh! you cant imagine how big a rafflesia flower has grown inside my heart at that very words! and one of the judges who looks somehow like Ayam (maybe they're related) said 'well done' at the end of our session. :'D can i hug you mr.Ayam-look-alike?! thank God! though there are a  few things that i have to change and some minor hiccups, i am thankful that my hard work has paid off!! :D thank u Allah.. it feels really really good when you put all your heart into it, and at the end of the day it gets the appreciation that it deserves :') and all i wanted to do after is bowing my head to the AlMighty, and celebrate it with someone who cares. ok la, anyone will do if no one cares. but at the end, i sit alone eating ice cream next to a four year-old girl in an ice-cream cafe. not even a cat is around to rub his shiny fur at my feet. life is fair..

ambassadors of Islam

Assalamualaikum :)

just want to share this one video. i think she's right when she says, when people look at a man, even with a beard, people wouldn't know for sure if he is a Muslim. but when people look at a woman/girl wearing scarf/hijab, they certainly know that that woman/girl is a Muslim. these women/girls are like ambassadors of Islam, in which we give the direct message that we are Muslims. so i am here to remind myself and my sisters in Islam, lets portray the right message being a woman/girl in hijab :)

may Allah bless us all.. Ameen.

pinch me one more time!

Assalamualaikum...

Alhamdulillah.. one of my du'a has come true. praises and gratitude to Him for making it all happen. pinch me once again, please, coz i still cant believe this is happening :) :) :)

pinch me!

Assalamualaikum.. :)

hey hey! i was just sitting on the couch watching TV and suddenly i remembered something that happened almost two years ago.. when someone introduced me to another someone and the first someone said to the other one that i was going to further my study.. and the second someone asked for  how long, i said two years, InsyaAllah.. and then time and again when i came back to Kuching, people would asked (especially grandparents, how cute!) "bila gik Aten abis blaja?" it was always, "sik lamak gik Nek.. setaun gik" and then "sik lamak gik.. enam bulan gik abis lah.." and then "taun depan Nek.. bulan tiga.." and now, it's 2012 and it is already February. i'm finishing in March, InsyaAllah.. will be graduating in April (with a BIG DEAL presentation that comes with it).. i'm nervous for the presentation, but i'm excited at the same time for finally arriving at the end of 'two years', and on top all i'm pump to do the finale design for my Diploma programme. though it doesn't really end after graduation (there's a-two-month internship after, yea yea its weird that we get to graduate before the internship), hey at least i am graduating right? teehee! syukur.. :')

i still am pinching myself from time to time, that i am finally done with the two years of studying ID. how time flies fast right.. i just have to let that out to make it sound more realistic. so i dont waste any more time lazing around on the couch watching TV, like i am doing just now. ngeeee. okay then. off to the student responsibility. yerdeh!

katakata

Assalamualaikum..

just a few food for thoughts..

my mom once said: kadang-kadang bila kita marah, kita jadi ter-kurang ajar.

and i am actually scared of myself when i am mad. unfortunately, lately i did blew up like never before. it was appropriate the thing i was mad at, but it wasn't appropriate at all what i did or said. it scares the people around me, it scares the hell out of me most of all.

a girl friend once gave me advice on surviving a relationship: don't mention other guys' name too much in front of your boyfriend. he'll eventually get bored of the relationship.

i took the advice, thankful of the reminder and live by it. though i know deep down i'm not gonna do it even if i wasn't told coz who would want to do that? isn't it too deliberately hurtful? but i don't think guys give smart advice like that to their pals. what a pity. what a shame.

i wanna Yuna

a reminder of why we have to go watch PDB show :P

ada bunga dalam hati

Hafiz! ♥

daddy's cupcake

something cute happened the other day.. ohh btw i'm in Kuching! yay! and the little Aqif will also be here in 5 days. double yay! the other day I was playing with Aqif, and my brother was also in the same room.

i was holding Aqif..
me: Aqif, klak di Kuching kita polah cupcakes ok!
Abang: nya lah cupcake *head down looking at his phone*
me: hah?? *surprised that my brother actually responds to my silly conversation with a 3-month-old baby*
Abang: nya lah cupcake *looked at me, serious face*
me: sapa?
Abang: Aqif lah. nya lah cupcake.

aieeeeeee paham sikkk? how cute is that?? a brother whom all this while doesnt seem to care bout the existence of cupcakes let alone my passion for cupcakes, is actually saying his son is THE cupcake! I bet my sis-in-law who was listening in the other room was also surprised. haha thinking bout the conversation made my day over and over again :))

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so long 2011

Assalamualaikum, and happy new year y'all!! sorry i'm 9 days late to wish you guys that, but we are still in the new year spirit righttt! new year, new resolutions, new aims, new goals, new targets, alll sorts of things you want them new. na'ah? alrity, since my previous years azam were not that accomplished (i cant remember making any azam for 2011 to start with), lets just make this year's azam to be better than yesteryear(s). be a better daughter, a better sister, a better friend, a better lover, a better listener, a better punch bag, a better giver, a better writer, a better student, a better designer, a better QS, a better baker, a better stalker, a better girl woman, a better human being, a better Malaysian, a better Kuchingite, on top all, a better servant to my Creator, a better Muslim.

1. I want to come early for meetings and classes (ergh. kantoi).

2. I want to socialise more in person, rather than just logging on to FB to look if they are on chat.

3. I want to sleep on time and have deep quality slumber.

4. I have to stop procastinating.

5. I have to explore KL more : both the real deal of living in KL, AND the confusing-making-me-cry-when-i'm-lost-road of Klang Valley -_-'' (but i'm scared!)

6. I have to not be scared.

errrr regarding no 4, I think i'll start right after thiss post. coz if I started, this entry might have been posted like 10 days ago :P

recap on how my 2011 went:

Apiz turned 25! big boyy!

and we turned 11 :')

the sleepless nights in March. due to datelines AND some pain i felt on my right side of tummy, apparently due to follicular cyst. still can feel the pain now, literally this very moment. but the doc said its nothing serious so i'm putting a strong face on :)

after the battle with 3D Autocad and the tummy pain, i got to board the plane to Adelaide at 10pm the same day i submitted my work! what a blisss! lamak dah sik go on a long flight to anywhere.. seronok ok!! :D i started feeling excited when we took the train and left the main terminal for the international terminal in KLIA. i dont know if they have specific name for the terminals :P

enjoying evening sun in Glenelg, Adelaide. i super duper love evening sun!! :D

reaching Ashcombe Maze & Lavender Garden to me, was a big accomplishment! though i wasnt driving, but it was my initiative. i read bout this place way back before i even know i'm going to Melbourne anytime soon. see, i have a thing for cool stuff like a MAZE! and also a garden full of flowers in harmony colour! i just keep the info that i got in a little notebook that i carry around, and when i did know for sure that i'm bound for Melbourne in April, i searched for more info on the place. and the morning we were supposed to drive to the garden, i woke up early so i can go to the Visitor Information Centre to get one final info on the route to get to that place. it is in Shoreham, Victoria and is approximately 94km away from Melbourne CBD. on our way, i think we passed a few vineyard. but i was asleep half of the journey coz i didnt have enough sleep the night before, and i'm already tired of the walk i took that morning to the Visitor Information Centre. haish.

my friend said that i took a lot of photos of building and sceneries while i'm in Adelaide and Melbourne. but i countered back, "there are photos of me, but i didnt upload them (on FB). i purposely put the ones without me in them" but then when i checked back, nang sik banyak pun! ahaha like 90% of the photos are buildings and sceneries ALONE. welll... i have my reasons :|

on 26 August 2011, also on the 26th day of the fasting month last year, my grandfather passed away peacefully on a Friday morning. needless i say more, he is dearly missed and forever will be loved by all of the family members. may Allah SWT grants him barakah in the hereafter. Ameen..

a little guy name Muhd Aqif Raziq was born on 14 September 2011!! he is my darling little nephew. i remember he was handsome and have long legs when i first met him, that is two days after he was born :)

i got pretty excited that i spelled 'Auntie' with double A. hehe :P

and this is his recent photo. acting all gangster in his hooded sleeveless shirt. careful when you see this little brat in your hood, he might look you in the eyes and you will fall in love ♥

this was how i celebrated my birthday!

24 october. eh tiba-tiba :P

hehehe of course you cant see anything! we were watching fireflies and trying to take home a souvenir photo of them, but of course we failed. the first hand experience was awesomenesss! this is another place on my secret wishlist, that i never tell anyone i wanted to go, well i guess Apiz knows my obsession with awesome stuff like this. thank you, you :) Apiz keep on singing Firefly by Owl City during the journey to and from the park. hihihi

birthday dinner 1 :P

birthday dinner 2 - with two birthday cakes :')

oh and just a few minutes before 12am menandakan 25 October, i received a text from my mom. sounded something like this:

so u are 25 today. u must know how to make wise decision in whatever ways. may Allah bless us. Amin.

i felt sad reading it. it just feels like i'm old enough to take care of myself, but sometimes i cant do it right. how how how lah to take care of people around me? at this age, i am the one who's suppose to take care of my parents welfare, but i still ask them for money *malunyaa* and i definitely am bad at decision making. always calling my mom every now and then to ask if its ok to do this or that. but InsyaAllah, i'll learn. and i'll do something so i can start doing what a daughter my age should do to their parents :')

i also get to see Shane in action in real time this yearrrr! ehh. i mean Westlife. Westlife in action in real time :P very the excited! especially when they did What Makes a Man and Flying Without Wings :')

i guess both me and Apiz are glad that we discovered Ayam and Projek Disko Baldi this year. heheh

and the weddings! i think 2011 is the year friends start getting married. both primary & secondary school friends and uni friends. one after another, and these are some of the ceremony that i got to go to.. there are a few more that i didnt manage to go.. nevertheless, my prayers are always with those who made this big step to maturity and above all, pure engagement called marriage :)

Ainil & Elly. they are now expecting a baby anytime soon this month! :D

Iman and her husband (sorry i forgot his name!) already has one additional member to the family! :D

Sarah & Rudi - also expecting the little one sometime in May! :D

Pejul & Bahiyah. shaky i know. but this is the only photo i have of us.

my darling Asha & Nasir. well babe, we are expecting the good news from you ;P

Rabiah & Yasser. alicia keys kolej dah kawen y'all :P

Nur & Farhan - one of my very first friends from primary school years :')

just like 2011, i am blessed to get to usher the new year 2012 together with my family.

i wish you all a happy year ahead. sure there'll be hurdles and obstacles along the way, but like we always hear from time to time, what doesnt kill you, makes you stronger, right? and Allah SWT surely does not put you through something you can not deal with. believe and pray.

till next post :)

dudes

Assalamualaikum and hello people!

i've been hooked with some videos on YouTube for these past few days, when i actually should be doing my designs.. ergghh! the videos are addictive and the titles are ridiculous that they are so tempting :P i'm sure some of you out there are already subscribers to Ryan Higa, or Kevin Wu, or the Wong Fu (the one who made Strangers, Again short film i posted before!), but if you're not, check them out yeaaa! they'll seriously make your day! especially Ryan..? nope! scratch that! Kev's dad will make your day! this one made me laugh the hardest so far, now its your turn! laugh out loud y'all!

i was so addicted to Kevin and his dad that i look for all videos containing his dad. thinking bout his dad actually makes me smile, like what i'm doing now. haha and then.. i found a few videos where Kevin talked bout their adventures on Amazing Race and some footage from the show. and then i remembered! yess i watched that season of Amazing Race before! but how come i did not recognise them? but i do remember the father and son team in which the father is so funny and zealous while the son is so cute :P well, what i remember most is the dad was so old-looking that i was amazed that he could go on to all those crazy challenges. you know how Amazing Race goes about right? and it's not Amazing Race Asia, its the US version. you can be Papa Jumba's (that's what he calls himself) fan on Fcaebook too you know! just search for PapaJumba, i guess. hahaha i dont know why i'm advertising him so much :P

this next video is a music video made by Ryan, Kevin & Chester. by the way, i think Chester is an amazing singer :) and this song i think is fully sang by him. correct me if i'm wrong. any Chester's fan out there? there are actually two versions of the video. one made for Ryan, one for Kevin. i cant really decide which one i like better, coz i love them both (i mean those guys not the videos) in a different way. hihihihihihi how about you decide!

Ryan's version:


Kev's version:

Apiz mesti menyampah, 'another vlogger??' i think he menyampah with matluthfi90 already coz i always talk bout his videos. well i like them for a reason (or reasons? since there's a few of them). like, matluthfi's videos are always tucked with messages whether you realised it or not, and they're funny. it's like each of his video is an art masterpiece by itself. higa's videos are fun & light watching and the faces he made are hilarious rasa mok tampar. kev's videos feature his dad which is the absolute winner! hahaha and wong fu's videos are like alas perut if you're craving for good movies :)

another reason, watching them reminds me of Apiz sometimes. like watching Nice Guys' video. nice guys dont usually finish last, from my pov. nice guys are the one i look for first and want to end up with, like Apiz. Apiz doesnt exactly pull my chair (no need lah kot, if we're only dining at McDonald kan??), or give me his jacket when i'm cold (sikda nya nak cold gilak rah Malaysia tok) and he definitely tells me i look fat when i look fat. but he also drives me around eventhough sometimes he has extremely bad headache, or when he's so sleepy that he takes a nap between green lights, and he always picks up my calls even when he's in a meeting and all i wanted to know was how to make the print screen thingy works :P all i'm trying to say is, Apiz is my nice guy, my first guy actually, and yeah i would like to have him as my last guy :) :)