the promise that was broken

Assalamualaikum :)

these few days, i've been missing Adelaide. one place that i promised i will never go to again, or even miss it. but here i am, helplessly missing the city. especially this one:

the empty parking lot of Harbour Town and a red rooster building at the back. i think i miss the red rooster building the most. heh

and the late evening walk at Glenelg beach :')

and the pianos scattered around the city. Glee's purple piano project reminds me of these pianos :'|

Adelaide was this vacation full of emotions, i mean all kinds of emotion. starting from the immigration check in, till the departure for Melbourne, which somehow contribute to me vowing never ever stepping my feet there ever again. haha see how i emotional i get with her? :P but i admit, i AM missing Adelaide, the laidback city. especially those 70's style houses! if i could, i would stop and take photos in front of all the cute houses i passed by! or maybe build one just like it here in Malaysia? cuteness i tell you! :P well, on top of everything that happened, i miss those time badly, and i miss my travel mate dearly :')

high school crush

Assalamualaikum :)

i just went back from the Westlife concert. like seven hours ago. ahah but i cant sleep since i drank teh tarik for the very late dinner just now. or was it just post-concert excitement? :B my heart is beating fast like a drum beat on a macarena song. yerdeh. i did try the relaxation method, or whatever you call it, to slow down the heart palpitation, but failed. hey i succeeded in few cases before! oh yess i got insomnia alot! its just the beginning of the semester, only week 1 to be exact, and i'm already staying up throughout the night (the best part is i did nothing but toss and turn in my bed instead of doing assignment!!) ! hoorayy! not.

so yeah, about the concert. AWESOME! need i say more? Westlife was awesome as always. as awesome as 11 years ago. i just wished they could sing more of the old old tracks - coz they sound more familiar than the new ones...? :P honestly, i stopped following them after i left secondary school. not purposely though, it just grew out of me. it grew out most of people i think. maybe cos we have more things to attend to other than drooling over some good looking fellas who sing beautiful love songs? but i never stop liking them though. whenever i hear their new song on the radio, i can easily recognised Shane & Mark's voices and i know that's Westlife :P and to prove my love for them, i never like another band or singer more than i like them after i stopped following them. well, until JB comes up. but that's nothing compared to how i love those Irish lads! ok nang mena-menar lah nak convince you people that i really like these people. like proving my love to them gituu. well, there were the very first band/singer that i'm a fan of from the English mainstream. seriously. before Westlife, i was the biggest fan of Elite!!!!! hahahaha SERIOUS confession here, people!! :P nahh i'm not ashamed of it. i still like to look at the pretty photos of the Elite members. i guess every girl has an idol to look up in their process of growing up, right? well i first started with a Barbie, and then the fairytale princesses (or was it the other way round? it should be the other way round) and then there were these Elite girls. haha ok we were talking bout who, again? Westlife or Elite? a'hah about the concert, the only thing that was a bit frustrating was the stage. stage AF lagik grande than this one. it was just a rectangular stage in black. no LED lights under the floor like Anugerah Juara Lagu. just.plain.black. no fun. since i don't really know their new songs, what more to memorise the lyrics of those songs, i can't sing along to those songs. but but but! - i did screamed my lungs out to What Makes A Man and Flying Without Wings!!! i'm actually surprised that they sang What Makes a Man since it wasn't a hit song. was it? i was hoping they do the signature Swear It Again, or legendary If I Let You Go. like the very first few songs that introduced Westlife to the world! heheh BUT i was also expecting Flying Without Wings, so i am super duper contented! :) and when Nicky said 'raise up your hands if you listened to Westlife songs during your high school time?' or something like that, i just feel connected, you know! you who listened to Westlife songs especially during your Form 1 2 3 years would know what i'm saying! but then he added 'yeah! it makes you feel old, right?' or something like that. ahaha what we all did not expect was, a proposal made by a guy to his girlfriend on the stage before the thousand pairs of eyes in the stadium! and after the lady said yes to her newly-engaged man, the Westlife lads sang My Love with the couple still sitting on the stage. and they hugged after the song ended! i mean the newly-engaged couple hugged those four Irish boys one by one, not they hugged each other. how romantic and sweet and beautiful moment was that?? not the hugging part (that was the jealousy part), the proposing part in front of many on a stage with Kian and Mark recording the moment on their personal recording devices! well having a heart as soft as a tissue, of course i cried. it's like watching romantic comedy bah! the difference is its the real world and those two people are serious in marrying each other, not an act, that the ring stays on the finger after the curtains are drawn! i hope. all in all in all, i still have the hots for Shane :P

that's the happy couple. and the boring stage.

(didn't expect the photo would be too small - very the lazy to crop. :P)

happy faces of 12 years Westlife fans! :)

now now now. still no sign for my eyes wanting to shut and call it a day. in fact, i think i'm ready for breakfast. nyum nyum nyum~

apologies

Al Fatihah

on 26 August 2011, also 26 Ramadhan 1432H, Friday morning - my Nek Aki peacefully passed away slightly before Subuh adhan. its been two weeks now since he left us - a wife, 6 children, 5 children-in-laws, and 18 grandchildren. and i am already missing him like crazy. and when i recalled you once said, Fatin Amira is a special name, i cried hard. i cried then, and i cry now. Allah SWT surely planned it all. He chose towards the end of Ramadhan, where almost all of his grandchildren were already back in Kuching (except for two) to have Izrail took his roh from his body. i pray he is in a better state wherever his roh might be right now. and i pray i see him again one day in The Jannah. Rasulullah SAW said people in The Jannah are all young and fit, i hope i recognise you enough, Nek Aki, coz from the photos of a younger you i saw in your house, you were quite good looking that i almost fell for you :') may Allah SWT grants us all the ability to strive for His pleasure in this world, and grants us death with Iman, Ameen. till then, my doa are always with you, Nek Aki. i ♥ you..

imy

feast for the soul

watch the rest of this heart-warming documentary :)

Part 2

Nabiollah gets the attention of the judges.

Part 3

Rifdha scores the highest point so far.

Part 4

Djamil cant talk to his mom back in Senegal, and he faces a hard time during his turn.

Part 5

announcement of the winners. Nabiollah recites for the President.

Part 6

credits.

i cant get enough of the footage. i pray one day my children will be able to memorize the Quran as well. i want to do it too, of course. InsyaAllah :)

Subhanallah :)

one or another

Assalamualaikum wbt :)

i was once asked by a male friend, ''when are you getting married?'' and i said, ''when i'm ready'' and he asked again, ''ready for what?'' i went, ''ready to take care of my husband'' and he said back, ''why do you think you have to take care of him? why is it not him who's taking care of you?'' i stared blankly at him with eyes wide open. i was taken aback. i never really give that a thought. seriously, that coming from a guy, was really a mind boggling.

i'm not the best person to talk bout relationship. i've been in one relationship with this dude since year 2000, which makes us .. 11 years plus plus now? well, i seriously stop counting after year tenth. though it is a whole ten years of a love story, i cant say that i know everything bout being in a relationship, let alone bout this species they say hails from Mars. yes, of course i learn alot from the years of being in love with one person. i know how he acts around elder people and how he treats his parents with honour, respect and passion. i know the exact word to say to tick him off. i remembered him saying how happy he was that SPM is over, that he wanted to kick me. not all that romantic, i know. its just him expressing his feelings in the weirdest choice of words. but no worries, he did NOT kick me. i watched him took those nervous proud steps on his graduation day 2 years ago. i watched him grow from a boy to a man :) what i'm saying is, being in this single relationship for this long of a period, is different from being in a few different relationships with different people. i could not compare him to another man, coz i dont know any other man. i could not feel different type of treatment, coz he's just being his oneself. i dont get to be introduced to different sets of friends, or even families. but what i could do is, i can anytime and anywhere say ''Dear! you remember that one afternoon we went to the beach and you adopted some siput to become your pets? who goes to the beach in the afternoon, seriously? anyway, you were really taking care of them by not letting them out of your sight .. eventhough they were only digging into sands to protect themselves from a creepy foster dad like you. and then after you finished your Baywatch moment we ate homemade bihun goreng together on the deck. you remember that baby? now what year was that again??'' or .... ''what was your birthday present to me when i turned 21? what did i get you? did i already give you a watch? oh crap i'm out of things to give for your birthday!'' i'm just trying to say that i can reminisce all the sweet and not too sweet moments we went through together anytime without him saying ''i never did that with you?!! // *weird stare at you* // who the heck are you thinking of right now???! // *awkward silence* // *knowing gesture* // *sulking on 1 party, or both*''

i am actually trying to say all relationships need give and take. (errr i dont think i get that message across quite correctly) like what my Justin Baby Bieber says in one of his songs 'it supposed to be some give and take, i know' a relationship doesnt work if there is only 1 part playing Romeo, nor wont it work if only 1 pair of legs doing the tango. doesnt really matter if you're in a 10-year love affair or 3 months cupid stricken, but it does matter how you treat each other with respect and much love through out every triumph and trouble. everyone needs a shoulder to cry on every now and then. behind a man's success, always stands a woman whom he cant do it without; and behind a woman's success, syurga tetap di bawah tapak kaki suami. eh?

so bottom line, do you want to be with your loved one coz you want to be taken care of, or do you want to be together so you can take care of each other for as long as Allah wills you? :)

for a short tazkirah in Ramadhan, Nabi Sulaiman AS once said to his son ''it is better to walk behind a tiger and big snakes which are black, rather than walking behind a woman''. women is the least failed weapon used by the shaitan to destruct men and make them go astray. so, in the holy month of Ramadhan, it might be a good start for all of us to learn to lower our gaze unto the opposite sex. quoting a friend: ''the more sacrifice a person makes (in controlling the gaze) the greater will be the elevation in spirituality. Ibn Qayyum rahamatullahi alayh said that a person who dies without repenting from the sin of casting lustful gazes will be deprived of seeing Allah the Most High.''

Salam Ramadhan all :) :) :)

Nisfu Syaaban

its Nisfu Syaaban tomorrow, friends :) 16 July 2011 it is, starting from Maghrib. 'nisfu' means middle in Arabic; nisfu Syaaban means the middle of the month Syaaban. there are lots of benefits of the night of Syaaban, among others:

"A hadith said that the advantage of the month of Rejab is the same as the benefits of the Holy Quran compared to other 'qalam', the month of Sya'aban as the same as the entire 'Anbia', and the month of Ramadhan as the same as Allah over all the creatures.One of the benefits of Sya'aban is that those who fast on any day, Allah will forbid him from hellfire and they will be companions to Prophet Yusof in heaven.Another hadith, as narrated by Ibnu Habban in his authentic book, from Muaz bin Jabal ra, said that Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) spoke that "Allah will see his followers on the night of Nisfu Sya'aban and Allah will give rewards or pahala to all of the followers, except those who commit syirik (witchcraft) and adultery".As narrated by Abdullah bin Amru bin al-As, which means "Allah looks at his creatures on the night of Nisfu Sya'aban, and will grant forgiveness, except for two groups, that are those who commit suicide and those who spread fitnah"." (source)

"Hari nisfu sya’aban adalah hari dimana buku catatan amalan kita selama setahun diangkat ke langit dan diganti dengan buku catatan yang baru. Catatan pertama yang akan dicatatkan dibuku yang baru akan bermula sebaik sahaja masuk waktu maghrib, (15 Sya’aban bermula pada 14 hb sya’aban sebaik sahaja masuk maghrib)" (source)

"Dari Abu Hurairah r.a : Nabi saw bersabda : “Telah datang kepadaku Jibrail pada malam nisfu Syaaban dan dia berkata : “Ya Muhammad, pada malam ini pintu-pintu langit dan pintu-pintulah rahmat dibuka. Maka berdirilah dan kerjakan solat lalu angkatlah kedua tanganmu ke langit”. Kata saya : Hai Jibrail, apakah erti malam ini?” Dia menjawab : “Pada malam ini telah dibuka 300 pintu rahmat, maka Allah swtmengampuni orang-orang yang tidak mensyerikatkan Allah dengan sesuatupun, kecuali para ahli sihir, dukun, orang yang suka bermusuhan, peminum khamar, orang yang berbuat zina, pemakan riba, orang yang derhaka kepada kedua orang tua, orang yang suka mengadu domba dan orang yang memutuskan tali persaudaraan, maka sesungguhnya mereka itu tidak akan diampuni sehingga mereka bertaubat dan tidak mengulangi.”" (source)

here's another great read. i only hope all my readers understand Bahasa Malaysia, cause i cant really find good articles bout Nisfu Syaaban in English :)

my hungry turtles

you like my new layout? you like? you like? i just think that i had enough of dull (brown) colour for my background, so i look for a fresher and brighter shades to feast your eyes! do you feel fresher??? heh apa kah dikerepak ku? but i love the layout before tooooo, so dont be surprised if i change it back to the old layout! hehe besides, i think i messed up my turtles' home on the left hand side of the screen. you see my turtles there? no turtles?? yea sometimes they're there, sometimes they wander off onto the sands sampei ilang. heheheh i dont know how to fix the size of the box. ekekekekek okay this is just random rambling on a Thursday afternoon. now i wanna cook my fish. i've been on a fish diet for two weeks. why?? coz i'm just bored of chicken! hehehe and and and i'm watching Harry Potter later in the evening! yipppyyyyy!!! dah boleh beli Harry Potter's dvd collection...! yeayy! sapa sapa rasa mok berik birthday present in advance, sela lah! ekekekekekek

                                 now you see..                                            now you don't!

toodles!

thank God it's Kuching!

i am currently in Kuching. been here for the past eight days. before i came back from KL, i had all these keazaman to update my blog and also my FB albums. BUT up til now, i havent done anything to both (this is the first attempt and i'm going off to KL soon). i rarely check the FB and i dont really log on to the blogger! then i start tracing back the root to my laziness/procrastination: when you're away from home, you have nothing else better to do than checking your account every now and then to peek on all the cool stuff thats happening that you're missing out, BUT when you're home, you're THE happening! so you dont really need those alam maya thingy to make you feel good or fill your time, coz you have real people in real time. betol sik???? cepat padah betol! erhh bottomline: my life in KL is dull la eh? you can say so, a bit lah :|

i have a cat name Fasha here. why the name, or how? well this tabby cat has white hair on her toes which makes her look as if 'berpaca'. you know, paca kuku ya bah, nail polish kata urang puteh. so instead of calling her 'Paca', i give class to the name hence 'Fasha'. hehehe bukan sempena Fasha Sanda ok. but then, as the cat grew bigger and older, she becomes ngegeh and very manjak. she's ngegeh around human - she doesnt want human to touch her, she'll run away when you go near her; she's manjak with her mummy and all other cats around - she'll come from whichever angle and poke her head to other cats' head, depan ka blakang ka tepi ka, tang ada ngesel palak nya ke palak pusak nak sekok gik ya. she usually do this to her mum lah. but if you start playing with other cats in front of her, she'll come and poke her head at you too. and thats her being ngegeh + manjak + jealous? and oh ya, she still drinks the milk from her mummy eventhough the milk are meant for the batches below her :| and then..... something happened. Fasha gave birth to three healthy kittens last Monday. at first, she looked like she didnt know what to do with the babies. beranak pun mengarei. first time bah, oo tedah. but when me and my sister put them all together in a box, she cant leave her babies even for a while! she's in the box for almost 90% of the day. she only comes out to eat, she doesnt even drink after eating but walks straight back to her babies!! she is the most loving mother cat we ever had in this house, serious aku janji! sometimes when i purposely flag the food in front of her so she would come out to eat, she ignores the food (mostly she ignores me) and continue being a caring & loving mother instead. so sweet lah u Fasha! but you're still ngegeh, alu jadi macam Fasha Sanda sikit sikit.

fifteen minutes ago i have a few more things on my mind that i want to share, but now, it looks like i forgot the points... hihihihi talk bout short attention span. macam pusak. oh i miss Mickey.

Kuching is so damn naisss!! want to stay here longer and not wanting to go back to KL soon can? pleeeeeease~