i wanna Yuna

a reminder of why we have to go watch PDB show :P

ada bunga dalam hati

Hafiz! ♥

daddy's cupcake

something cute happened the other day.. ohh btw i'm in Kuching! yay! and the little Aqif will also be here in 5 days. double yay! the other day I was playing with Aqif, and my brother was also in the same room.

i was holding Aqif..
me: Aqif, klak di Kuching kita polah cupcakes ok!
Abang: nya lah cupcake *head down looking at his phone*
me: hah?? *surprised that my brother actually responds to my silly conversation with a 3-month-old baby*
Abang: nya lah cupcake *looked at me, serious face*
me: sapa?
Abang: Aqif lah. nya lah cupcake.

aieeeeeee paham sikkk? how cute is that?? a brother whom all this while doesnt seem to care bout the existence of cupcakes let alone my passion for cupcakes, is actually saying his son is THE cupcake! I bet my sis-in-law who was listening in the other room was also surprised. haha thinking bout the conversation made my day over and over again :))

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so long 2011

Assalamualaikum, and happy new year y'all!! sorry i'm 9 days late to wish you guys that, but we are still in the new year spirit righttt! new year, new resolutions, new aims, new goals, new targets, alll sorts of things you want them new. na'ah? alrity, since my previous years azam were not that accomplished (i cant remember making any azam for 2011 to start with), lets just make this year's azam to be better than yesteryear(s). be a better daughter, a better sister, a better friend, a better lover, a better listener, a better punch bag, a better giver, a better writer, a better student, a better designer, a better QS, a better baker, a better stalker, a better girl woman, a better human being, a better Malaysian, a better Kuchingite, on top all, a better servant to my Creator, a better Muslim.

1. I want to come early for meetings and classes (ergh. kantoi).

2. I want to socialise more in person, rather than just logging on to FB to look if they are on chat.

3. I want to sleep on time and have deep quality slumber.

4. I have to stop procastinating.

5. I have to explore KL more : both the real deal of living in KL, AND the confusing-making-me-cry-when-i'm-lost-road of Klang Valley -_-'' (but i'm scared!)

6. I have to not be scared.

errrr regarding no 4, I think i'll start right after thiss post. coz if I started, this entry might have been posted like 10 days ago :P

recap on how my 2011 went:

Apiz turned 25! big boyy!

and we turned 11 :')

the sleepless nights in March. due to datelines AND some pain i felt on my right side of tummy, apparently due to follicular cyst. still can feel the pain now, literally this very moment. but the doc said its nothing serious so i'm putting a strong face on :)

after the battle with 3D Autocad and the tummy pain, i got to board the plane to Adelaide at 10pm the same day i submitted my work! what a blisss! lamak dah sik go on a long flight to anywhere.. seronok ok!! :D i started feeling excited when we took the train and left the main terminal for the international terminal in KLIA. i dont know if they have specific name for the terminals :P

enjoying evening sun in Glenelg, Adelaide. i super duper love evening sun!! :D

reaching Ashcombe Maze & Lavender Garden to me, was a big accomplishment! though i wasnt driving, but it was my initiative. i read bout this place way back before i even know i'm going to Melbourne anytime soon. see, i have a thing for cool stuff like a MAZE! and also a garden full of flowers in harmony colour! i just keep the info that i got in a little notebook that i carry around, and when i did know for sure that i'm bound for Melbourne in April, i searched for more info on the place. and the morning we were supposed to drive to the garden, i woke up early so i can go to the Visitor Information Centre to get one final info on the route to get to that place. it is in Shoreham, Victoria and is approximately 94km away from Melbourne CBD. on our way, i think we passed a few vineyard. but i was asleep half of the journey coz i didnt have enough sleep the night before, and i'm already tired of the walk i took that morning to the Visitor Information Centre. haish.

my friend said that i took a lot of photos of building and sceneries while i'm in Adelaide and Melbourne. but i countered back, "there are photos of me, but i didnt upload them (on FB). i purposely put the ones without me in them" but then when i checked back, nang sik banyak pun! ahaha like 90% of the photos are buildings and sceneries ALONE. welll... i have my reasons :|

on 26 August 2011, also on the 26th day of the fasting month last year, my grandfather passed away peacefully on a Friday morning. needless i say more, he is dearly missed and forever will be loved by all of the family members. may Allah SWT grants him barakah in the hereafter. Ameen..

a little guy name Muhd Aqif Raziq was born on 14 September 2011!! he is my darling little nephew. i remember he was handsome and have long legs when i first met him, that is two days after he was born :)

i got pretty excited that i spelled 'Auntie' with double A. hehe :P

and this is his recent photo. acting all gangster in his hooded sleeveless shirt. careful when you see this little brat in your hood, he might look you in the eyes and you will fall in love ♥

this was how i celebrated my birthday!

24 october. eh tiba-tiba :P

hehehe of course you cant see anything! we were watching fireflies and trying to take home a souvenir photo of them, but of course we failed. the first hand experience was awesomenesss! this is another place on my secret wishlist, that i never tell anyone i wanted to go, well i guess Apiz knows my obsession with awesome stuff like this. thank you, you :) Apiz keep on singing Firefly by Owl City during the journey to and from the park. hihihi

birthday dinner 1 :P

birthday dinner 2 - with two birthday cakes :')

oh and just a few minutes before 12am menandakan 25 October, i received a text from my mom. sounded something like this:

so u are 25 today. u must know how to make wise decision in whatever ways. may Allah bless us. Amin.

i felt sad reading it. it just feels like i'm old enough to take care of myself, but sometimes i cant do it right. how how how lah to take care of people around me? at this age, i am the one who's suppose to take care of my parents welfare, but i still ask them for money *malunyaa* and i definitely am bad at decision making. always calling my mom every now and then to ask if its ok to do this or that. but InsyaAllah, i'll learn. and i'll do something so i can start doing what a daughter my age should do to their parents :')

i also get to see Shane in action in real time this yearrrr! ehh. i mean Westlife. Westlife in action in real time :P very the excited! especially when they did What Makes a Man and Flying Without Wings :')

i guess both me and Apiz are glad that we discovered Ayam and Projek Disko Baldi this year. heheh

and the weddings! i think 2011 is the year friends start getting married. both primary & secondary school friends and uni friends. one after another, and these are some of the ceremony that i got to go to.. there are a few more that i didnt manage to go.. nevertheless, my prayers are always with those who made this big step to maturity and above all, pure engagement called marriage :)

Ainil & Elly. they are now expecting a baby anytime soon this month! :D

Iman and her husband (sorry i forgot his name!) already has one additional member to the family! :D

Sarah & Rudi - also expecting the little one sometime in May! :D

Pejul & Bahiyah. shaky i know. but this is the only photo i have of us.

my darling Asha & Nasir. well babe, we are expecting the good news from you ;P

Rabiah & Yasser. alicia keys kolej dah kawen y'all :P

Nur & Farhan - one of my very first friends from primary school years :')

just like 2011, i am blessed to get to usher the new year 2012 together with my family.

i wish you all a happy year ahead. sure there'll be hurdles and obstacles along the way, but like we always hear from time to time, what doesnt kill you, makes you stronger, right? and Allah SWT surely does not put you through something you can not deal with. believe and pray.

till next post :)

dudes

Assalamualaikum and hello people!

i've been hooked with some videos on YouTube for these past few days, when i actually should be doing my designs.. ergghh! the videos are addictive and the titles are ridiculous that they are so tempting :P i'm sure some of you out there are already subscribers to Ryan Higa, or Kevin Wu, or the Wong Fu (the one who made Strangers, Again short film i posted before!), but if you're not, check them out yeaaa! they'll seriously make your day! especially Ryan..? nope! scratch that! Kev's dad will make your day! this one made me laugh the hardest so far, now its your turn! laugh out loud y'all!

i was so addicted to Kevin and his dad that i look for all videos containing his dad. thinking bout his dad actually makes me smile, like what i'm doing now. haha and then.. i found a few videos where Kevin talked bout their adventures on Amazing Race and some footage from the show. and then i remembered! yess i watched that season of Amazing Race before! but how come i did not recognise them? but i do remember the father and son team in which the father is so funny and zealous while the son is so cute :P well, what i remember most is the dad was so old-looking that i was amazed that he could go on to all those crazy challenges. you know how Amazing Race goes about right? and it's not Amazing Race Asia, its the US version. you can be Papa Jumba's (that's what he calls himself) fan on Fcaebook too you know! just search for PapaJumba, i guess. hahaha i dont know why i'm advertising him so much :P

this next video is a music video made by Ryan, Kevin & Chester. by the way, i think Chester is an amazing singer :) and this song i think is fully sang by him. correct me if i'm wrong. any Chester's fan out there? there are actually two versions of the video. one made for Ryan, one for Kevin. i cant really decide which one i like better, coz i love them both (i mean those guys not the videos) in a different way. hihihihihihi how about you decide!

Ryan's version:


Kev's version:

Apiz mesti menyampah, 'another vlogger??' i think he menyampah with matluthfi90 already coz i always talk bout his videos. well i like them for a reason (or reasons? since there's a few of them). like, matluthfi's videos are always tucked with messages whether you realised it or not, and they're funny. it's like each of his video is an art masterpiece by itself. higa's videos are fun & light watching and the faces he made are hilarious rasa mok tampar. kev's videos feature his dad which is the absolute winner! hahaha and wong fu's videos are like alas perut if you're craving for good movies :)

another reason, watching them reminds me of Apiz sometimes. like watching Nice Guys' video. nice guys dont usually finish last, from my pov. nice guys are the one i look for first and want to end up with, like Apiz. Apiz doesnt exactly pull my chair (no need lah kot, if we're only dining at McDonald kan??), or give me his jacket when i'm cold (sikda nya nak cold gilak rah Malaysia tok) and he definitely tells me i look fat when i look fat. but he also drives me around eventhough sometimes he has extremely bad headache, or when he's so sleepy that he takes a nap between green lights, and he always picks up my calls even when he's in a meeting and all i wanted to know was how to make the print screen thingy works :P all i'm trying to say is, Apiz is my nice guy, my first guy actually, and yeah i would like to have him as my last guy :) :)

oh so random!

i've abandoned this place for a while, i know. and i feel bad for it. truth is, nowadays i cant seem to put my thoughts into words. i have the time, most of it i spend watching tv or stalking other blogs, but not nourishing and fluorishing my own. it feels like i am pweety lazy lately. i am lazy to read too many text, i am lazy to calculate simple maths, i even feel lazy to feel. and i am afraid that i'm losing myself. i can feel that i am not really the person who i was before, lately. takut, takuuut aiee :( it could be works that consume me bit by bit, or this place. this busy city which waits for no one. things seem to pass me by just like that (while i'm watching tv. heh). i hope i know enough the difference of losing passion and maturity, though.

but before i went out for class thismorning, i get to watch Barbie in 12 Dancing Princess on TV3! yeay! i wish i could watch it til the end, but i have to do my grown-up duty. but i probably will look for the DVD later :P watching the princesses dancing in colourful dresses and enjoying myself while doing it somehow gives me hope that i still have that few bit of my old self within me :)

i used to congratulate myself infront of you people every three months of my success after each term, right? and i dont really do it anymore right?? i know, right. i think i missed two terms without doing so..? now i'm in the middle of the last term of the year. less than a month to go to get over and done with this one. and i'm through to the last term, with God's willing. almost a year and a half passed, just like that *plucking fingers*. as much as i dont want it to be over too soon (coz i love the lecturers. now, really..?), i cant wait to be done with it either! i dont know whats waiting for me ahead, but i am pumped to know and discover. people say its a bitch, but i think i am ready to walk ahead and trip and stand up and fight :) lets just see la kan :P

friends are married. lots of friends. a couple of good friends. and another one coming up this weekend. and these few friends are those whom i was and am very close to. one is my childhood bestfriend, the first friend whom i called bestfriend as a kid :) one is my rebellious partner whom taught me a thing or two bout living in a society in which boys and men exist. haha and one is my leg warmer friend. eh? i mean she's so cool that she warms me up with her kind words and perspective of life, whenever i feel like banging my head to the wall :) congratulations, you three! i wish you all the best! and i hope our kids will one day be friends like we are, too! :) :) :)

congrats Rabiah! :')

congrats Asha! :')

i know this is random, but i think another reason for me not writing, is that thoughts and ideas always come at the wrong place. right time though, but very wrong place. like in the bathroom..? and during lecture..? and while i'm driving..? right timing, i tell you. like those are my thinking momento. well i'm not suppose to think bout other things during lecture though, but some things lead me to another you see. but but BUT, i cant write the thought down cos i dont have a pen and a paper with me at that time! i dont carry a pen with me in the bathroom, do you? i cant write while i'm driving, you can aa? and i cant pretend like i'm writing notes when i'm actually writing an emotional blog entry  while i'm in the class, kannn?? hehehe but now! i'm in the class. finally.

they all went to the canteen, leaving notebooks and laptops just like that. its a safe place.

oh! about my birthday! :) about it.....

the promise that was broken

Assalamualaikum :)

these few days, i've been missing Adelaide. one place that i promised i will never go to again, or even miss it. but here i am, helplessly missing the city. especially this one:

the empty parking lot of Harbour Town and a red rooster building at the back. i think i miss the red rooster building the most. heh

and the late evening walk at Glenelg beach :')

and the pianos scattered around the city. Glee's purple piano project reminds me of these pianos :'|

Adelaide was this vacation full of emotions, i mean all kinds of emotion. starting from the immigration check in, till the departure for Melbourne, which somehow contribute to me vowing never ever stepping my feet there ever again. haha see how i emotional i get with her? :P but i admit, i AM missing Adelaide, the laidback city. especially those 70's style houses! if i could, i would stop and take photos in front of all the cute houses i passed by! or maybe build one just like it here in Malaysia? cuteness i tell you! :P well, on top of everything that happened, i miss those time badly, and i miss my travel mate dearly :')

high school crush

Assalamualaikum :)

i just went back from the Westlife concert. like seven hours ago. ahah but i cant sleep since i drank teh tarik for the very late dinner just now. or was it just post-concert excitement? :B my heart is beating fast like a drum beat on a macarena song. yerdeh. i did try the relaxation method, or whatever you call it, to slow down the heart palpitation, but failed. hey i succeeded in few cases before! oh yess i got insomnia alot! its just the beginning of the semester, only week 1 to be exact, and i'm already staying up throughout the night (the best part is i did nothing but toss and turn in my bed instead of doing assignment!!) ! hoorayy! not.

so yeah, about the concert. AWESOME! need i say more? Westlife was awesome as always. as awesome as 11 years ago. i just wished they could sing more of the old old tracks - coz they sound more familiar than the new ones...? :P honestly, i stopped following them after i left secondary school. not purposely though, it just grew out of me. it grew out most of people i think. maybe cos we have more things to attend to other than drooling over some good looking fellas who sing beautiful love songs? but i never stop liking them though. whenever i hear their new song on the radio, i can easily recognised Shane & Mark's voices and i know that's Westlife :P and to prove my love for them, i never like another band or singer more than i like them after i stopped following them. well, until JB comes up. but that's nothing compared to how i love those Irish lads! ok nang mena-menar lah nak convince you people that i really like these people. like proving my love to them gituu. well, there were the very first band/singer that i'm a fan of from the English mainstream. seriously. before Westlife, i was the biggest fan of Elite!!!!! hahahaha SERIOUS confession here, people!! :P nahh i'm not ashamed of it. i still like to look at the pretty photos of the Elite members. i guess every girl has an idol to look up in their process of growing up, right? well i first started with a Barbie, and then the fairytale princesses (or was it the other way round? it should be the other way round) and then there were these Elite girls. haha ok we were talking bout who, again? Westlife or Elite? a'hah about the concert, the only thing that was a bit frustrating was the stage. stage AF lagik grande than this one. it was just a rectangular stage in black. no LED lights under the floor like Anugerah Juara Lagu. just.plain.black. no fun. since i don't really know their new songs, what more to memorise the lyrics of those songs, i can't sing along to those songs. but but but! - i did screamed my lungs out to What Makes A Man and Flying Without Wings!!! i'm actually surprised that they sang What Makes a Man since it wasn't a hit song. was it? i was hoping they do the signature Swear It Again, or legendary If I Let You Go. like the very first few songs that introduced Westlife to the world! heheh BUT i was also expecting Flying Without Wings, so i am super duper contented! :) and when Nicky said 'raise up your hands if you listened to Westlife songs during your high school time?' or something like that, i just feel connected, you know! you who listened to Westlife songs especially during your Form 1 2 3 years would know what i'm saying! but then he added 'yeah! it makes you feel old, right?' or something like that. ahaha what we all did not expect was, a proposal made by a guy to his girlfriend on the stage before the thousand pairs of eyes in the stadium! and after the lady said yes to her newly-engaged man, the Westlife lads sang My Love with the couple still sitting on the stage. and they hugged after the song ended! i mean the newly-engaged couple hugged those four Irish boys one by one, not they hugged each other. how romantic and sweet and beautiful moment was that?? not the hugging part (that was the jealousy part), the proposing part in front of many on a stage with Kian and Mark recording the moment on their personal recording devices! well having a heart as soft as a tissue, of course i cried. it's like watching romantic comedy bah! the difference is its the real world and those two people are serious in marrying each other, not an act, that the ring stays on the finger after the curtains are drawn! i hope. all in all in all, i still have the hots for Shane :P

that's the happy couple. and the boring stage.

(didn't expect the photo would be too small - very the lazy to crop. :P)

happy faces of 12 years Westlife fans! :)

now now now. still no sign for my eyes wanting to shut and call it a day. in fact, i think i'm ready for breakfast. nyum nyum nyum~

apologies

Al Fatihah

on 26 August 2011, also 26 Ramadhan 1432H, Friday morning - my Nek Aki peacefully passed away slightly before Subuh adhan. its been two weeks now since he left us - a wife, 6 children, 5 children-in-laws, and 18 grandchildren. and i am already missing him like crazy. and when i recalled you once said, Fatin Amira is a special name, i cried hard. i cried then, and i cry now. Allah SWT surely planned it all. He chose towards the end of Ramadhan, where almost all of his grandchildren were already back in Kuching (except for two) to have Izrail took his roh from his body. i pray he is in a better state wherever his roh might be right now. and i pray i see him again one day in The Jannah. Rasulullah SAW said people in The Jannah are all young and fit, i hope i recognise you enough, Nek Aki, coz from the photos of a younger you i saw in your house, you were quite good looking that i almost fell for you :') may Allah SWT grants us all the ability to strive for His pleasure in this world, and grants us death with Iman, Ameen. till then, my doa are always with you, Nek Aki. i ♥ you..

imy