Friday, February 26, 2010

kekasih-Nya sayangkan kita

sempena Hari Keputeraan Nabi Junjungan kita, haruslah saya berkongsi sebuah kisah tentang baginda Rasulullah SAW yang saya pernah dengar dari mulut seorang ustad yang saya tidak tahu namanya(tetapi ustad betol bukan tipu2, saya memang honest tidak tahu nama nya). dan haruslah juga saya berbahasa Malaysia kerana penyampaian ustad tersebut juga dalam bahasa ini dan seboleh-bolehnya saya berusaha menggunakan perkataan-perkataan yang hampir dengan yang telah digunakan oleh ustad tersebut. juga saya takut penyampaian dalam bahasa Inggeris saya tidak tepat dan tidak sampai ke pemahaman kamu-kamu sekalian. nanti terpesong pulak message nyer yer. EHEK

ini adalah kisah kewafatan Rasulullah SAW. pada suatu hari, Rasulullah SAW didatangi malaikat Jibril yang berkata, "Rasulullah, aku datang kerana ingin menyampaikan dua perkara dari Tuhan mu. satu, Allah SWT kata Al-Qur'an dah cukup 30 juzuk. kedua, Allah SWT menyuruh aku mengambil nyawamu, adakah kamu mahu mati?" betapa istimewa nya baginda diberi pilihan samada mahu meninggalkan dunia ini atau tidak. Rasulullah SAW segera menjawab bahawa baginda mahu nyawanya dicabut memandangkan Al-Qur'an sudah cukup himpunannya 30 juzuk dan kerana baginda sudah tidak sabar bertemu dengan zat Pencipta yang sangat dikasihinya. Jibril pun berkata bahawa dia akan datang lagi enam hari untuk mengambil nyawa Rasulullah SAW.

pada hari yang dijanjikan, dikala Rasulullah SAW sudah terlantar sakit, datang malaikat Jibirl bersama tiga lagi malaikat. Allah SWT memberi lagi keistimewaan kepada baginda dimana baginda ditanya jika baginda mempunyai apa-apa permintaan sebelum roh nya dipisah dari badan. Rasulullah SAW memohon agar nyawanya dicabut seperti dicabutnya nyawa dari hamba Allah SWT yang tidak bersembahyang kerana orang dari golongan ini adalah yang paling sakit sekali nyawanya untuk berpisah dari badan berbanding dengan golongan yang berzina, meminum arak dan lain-lain. betapa mulianya Rasul junjungan kita, mahu merasa keperitan yang paling dahsyat yang bakal ditanggung oleh umat nya yang tidak menyembah Tuhan nya walaupun baginda Rasulullah SAW adalah seorang maksum.

malaikat pertama menarik roh Rasulullah SAW dari kaki hingga ke lutut. pengsan Rasulullah SAW kerana terlalu sakit. apabila sedar dari pengsan nya, baginda memohon pada Allah SWT, "kalau beginilah kesakitan yang dirasai oleh umat ku ya Allah, biarlah aku menanggung segala kesakitan ini ya Allah" manusia mana yang boleh menandingi kemuliaan Nabi Muhamad SAW yang mahu menanggung semua kesakitan yang paling getir dalam seumur hidup manusia? dan bukan hanya seorang manusia, baginda mahu menanggung kesakitan untuk setiap umat nya di muka bumi ini..? Allah SWT menolak permintaan baginda dan berkata setiap hamba Nya dan umat Rasulullah harus menerima dan merasai sendiri balasan terhadap apa yang telah merekaka lakukan di muka bumi.

malaikat kedua pula menarik roh Nabi Muhamad SAW dari lutut ke pinggang. sekali lagi baginda pengsan kerana sakit yang teramat. apabila baginda sedar dari pengsan nya, malaikat ketiga pula mencabut roh baginda dari pinggang ke halkum. perkara yang sama berlaku, Rasulullah pengsan kali ketiga. sesedar baginda dari pengsan nya, Rasulullah memohon lagi dengan Allah SWT, "Ya Allah, kau terimalah taubat umat ku walaupun nyawa mereka sudah di takat ini" Allah SWT kabulkan permintaan yang satu ini dari kekasih-Nya itu. inilah sebabnya kita masih mampu mengucapkan dua kalimah syahadah walau kita sudah terlantar nazak. dibandingkan dengan zaman Nabi Musa, dimana Firaun mahu bertaubat apabila dia lemas di Lautan Merah, Allah SWT tidak lagi menerima taubat nya dikala itu. sebelum Jibril mencabut terus roh baginda keluar dari jasad nya, baginda sempat lagi berkata "Ummati, Ummati, Ummati. As-Solah, As-Solah, As-Solah." betapa indah dan mulia nya Rasullullah SAW, sebelum baginda pergi meninggalkan bumi ini buat selamanya, baginda masih lagi ingat dengan kita umat nya. betapa sayangnya baginda terhadap kita ini yang seringkali lalai dan lupa akan diri baginda, apatah lagi pengorbanannya.

semoga menjadi renungan kita bersama (itu termasuk saya juga) yang hari Keputeraan Nabi Muhamad SAW bukan sekadar hari cuti umum, it is something to be celebrated. cause, without the birth of the Prophet Muhamad, we won't be having the faith & arah tuju like we have today, and we won't be living like we are today, and I won't be writing this entry for you to ponder upon. (tiba-tiba ngegeh mahu berbahasa Inggeris kembali).

saya memohon ampun dan maaf andai ada kesilapan dalam menulis kisah ini, juga maaf jika terdapat bahasa yang kurang/tidak sesuai dalam menulis entry ini. andai ada kesilapan di mana-mana bahagian kisah ini, tolong ditegur dan diperbetulkan.

saya memohon kepasa sesiapa yang fasih dalam berbahasa Inggeris, silalah mengalih bahasa entry ini supaya orang yang tidak faham bahasa Malaysia dapat menghayatinya juga. asalkan tidak lari dan terpesong dari message asal.

Allahuma salli ala saiyidina Muhamad, wa'ala ali Muhamad.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

flickering

Mak: aih kenak lampu ya sekejap bukak sekejap tutup?
Bapak: lampu ney?
Mak: yaa... (pointing at the streetlight)
Bapak: oh kelam kelip kah?
Mak: bukan kelam kelip. kejap bukak kejap tutup.
Bapak: kelam kelip lah sekejap bukak sekejap tutup. nak?


Mak & me: (looking at each other grinning and silently thought 'mena juak ooo..')

Monday, February 22, 2010

love, always~

i may not understand why you do what you do, sometimes. i also dont know why you say what you say, at times. maybe next time i'll ask instead of pretending like i know. and when i give you the cold shoulder after, or treat you with silent gaze and stare, i cool down by thinking how much i am in love with you, that sometimes its not entirely your fault that i'm pissed, and  i also realised that no matter how mad i am at you, i still want to be next to you and not ever want you to step out of my life. i need you to know, i always love you, in all kinds of emotion and condition. ALL the time.

Saturday, February 13, 2010

letter to Apiz

after a rollercoaster of bitter-sweet yet passionate and sturdy 10 years of love, i thought we were getting better at this long-distance thingy. at least i think i was stronger - that i could do this anytime anywhere. i admit it'll be a bit too conceited to claim that i could do this better than before. that i promise myself no more crying at the airport, no more melancholy silence in the car the night before we parted, no more 'goodbyes' but instead we say 'see you soon' - coz we do this ALL.THE.TIME. when in fact, i think i got worse. i turn from doing good to suck. and i think i suck even more right now that i'm missing you to the point that i do not know what to do. just got off the phone with you. but it didnt seem enough. i still wana hear you talk, even in your most gibberish sleepiest voice. even after seeing you for a whole day, it still didnt seem enough. i still wana watch you even when you're doing nothing but sleep while we're in the movie. you are like my vacation. my joy. my punch bag. my bestest buddy. my all. everything that i've seen, heard and touch, i want to share them with you. i want to run to you after an argument with a family member. i want to talk to you after a misunderstanding with a friend. i want to let you know what a stranger just told me. and i want to be the most with you after we had our very own quarrel, to make up with you and just melt one more time in your tender love. i enjoy being close to you. to have someone to run to when things get bad. someone to give me shoulders to cry on when the world seem evil from all sides. someone to give me a full warm hug when i just simply need one. someone i can whisper all my dreams and fears and tell me to dream bigger cause it is absolutely free-of-charge to do so. someone to always want to keep me safe and happy. someone who appreciate my presence and make me feel belonged. i think i've grown dependent on you. and dare i said, i was waiting for this day to come, where i've come out from my own bubble and join you in our bubble. sorry i made you wait, dear. i want you and the world to know that i love you til the end.

Di sudut termenung jauh
Mengenangkan nasib kita
Kita miliki separuh
Berbentuk hati cinta namanya

Walau kau jauh
Ku sentiasa menunggumu
Inginku imbas kembali memori

Walau kau jauh
Ku berjanji kan terus tunggu
Dipisah lautan biru

Ku mahu kau tahu
Aku kan terus menunggu

Jaga benar gambarku dalam telefon bimbitmu
Jangan pernah sekali kau buang
Seperti cinta ini yang terbuku
Akan bersemi jua

Terus menunggu
Kita kan bersatu
Terus menunggu
Ku mahu kau tahu

Thursday, February 11, 2010

the impatient sisters

this is Sue and her sister.

watch this, and you'll beg for morreeee! enjoy!



check out cempakasession on YouTube! :D

Monday, February 8, 2010

lay back folks

these are overdue TV commercials but i still think they are funny/cute and worth sharing. never fail to make me smile even on a grey day.


yea! yea! yea yea yea yea!


my favourite would be the kid on 0:08 - cute like a hamster! :D

Friday, February 5, 2010

wishlist 2010

a month passed. can you actually believe it that we've been in 2010 for more than 30 days. and so far, what have you achieved? what have i achieved? i cant really say coz i dont know if the things i've done for the past 35 days can be considered as achievement(s). i'm still having the time of my life being unemployed - definitely not an achievement, but i'm happy :p i hope some of the things i did to my friends made them happy. i might have hurt other(s) in the process, but cant really make everyone happy at the same time. i just hope some people could realise it that when you've given them a chance, make full use of it and do not take it for granted. i've given you my time, and i too have other obligations. i too have other people to see, and things to do. so dont be selfish and grumpy if i cant see you for the second time since i have limited period being around you. i intended to give you a hug when we said goodbye the other day, but you ran off too quickly, then i know you thought we could just meet again 3 days later, but we didnt. just wish you could be more understanding and be more like a friend like you claim you are. huh! tiba-tiba emo..

so i've listed all my so-called resolutions and wishes for the 11 months to come of 2010.

2010 wishlist:
1. BUNGY jump
2. go Bangkok
3. learn how to ride motorcycle
4. learn how to ride motorcycle before going to Bangkok
5. learn sewing
6. exercise regularly & be fit
7. stop asking useless invitations to those who seem careless
8. learn to trust people more
9. have a HAPPIER birthday
10. study I.D.
11. talk more to strangers
12. text less to Sheila, call more (sorry babe. i know how u hate texting. sometimes i forgot~)
13. make more people happy
14. BE HAPPIER MYSELF!

i hope this list grows as time passes.. :)